This morning after I got off work at 6am, I decided to be virtuous. Or well, attempt to be. So I went home, changed clothes, woke up my poor sleeping hubby and dragged him down to the track at the high school with me. I'm a terrible self motivator so I needed him there with me to push me when I want to give up. With his help, I ran a mile and half. Not much right? Yeah, and I was huffing and puffing the whole damn way.
It was today that I realized I have truly become a fat ass. Now, I was never one for P.E. in school but I don't remember it being as hard as it is now.
When I was still living in Tucson Sam and I used to go running together 5 days a week after work. It was perfect! We could push each other to do it and wouldn't let each other quit. I'm super proud of her because she has kept this going all by herself. Even with college and a job going. What do I do? Sit on my lazy ass all night at work, eat, then go home and sleep, eat, shower and start it all over again. F my life.
This is probably the worst I've ever felt in my life, physically and emotionally. And I think it all has to do with my diet and exercise. I'm officially the largest I've ever been and the most miserable. Problem is, that's still not enough to get me off my ass and start working out. So if that's not enough, what is?
I'm lucky I had Omar this morning to help me push myself; I couldn't have done it without him. But I can't count on him coming with me every morning. He works too. Our schedules are just too different.
I need classes of some sort to take. Preferably ones that aren't 45 freaking miles away. That sounds great doesn't it? Let's drive for 2 hours each day to work out for 40 minutes. Yeah, no. Especially since the last thing I'll want to do is come home to fix the healthy food, so I'll end up with mickey d's or something. Workout? Down the toilet.
Ugh, I need help!! I just want to be fit!!
P.S. wanna know what's really sad? I would love to be a nutritionist and a yoga instructor. Yet, look at me. Yeah, I know. I'm pathetic. sigh
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
For the Love of Leo
So I guess a little about myself to start:
My name is Jennifer.
I live in Morenci, AZ with my boyfriend Omar. He is a police officer and I'm a dispatcher at the same department. We both work at the Clifton Police Department which is about 1 mile from our house. I have lived here approximately 1 year, but I grew up in Tucson. I moved from Tucson because I needed a place to stay, was on the verge of being homeless, and I wanted to be closer to him. Though not necessarily in that order.
I'm 19 years old, Omar is 27.
We have a 3 bedroom house that is barely 700 sq. feet. We have 2 siberian huskies: bettie and jasper. They probably weigh a combined total of 100 pounds. Then I have my little 3 pound shih tzu-terrier mix puppy Leo who is the light of my heart. Omar absolutely despises him and is constantly thinking of ways to kill him. He also hates cats. We have gone through 5 of them before we finally found out we had distemper in the house which is a highly contagious disease.
I also am a terrible writer, so bear with me here.
I knew nothing about Morenci before I moved here. For those of you out there melting your brains by staring at your computer screen just like me; Morenci is a mining town owned by FreeportMacMoran. It's primarily a copper mine but the company that owns it specializes in gold. Which is exactly why it has recently gone down the hole and the town very quickly turned into a ghost town. Supposedly it is picking back up again, but I'll believe it when I see it.
Omar grew up here with his parents and younger brothers, so many people here remember him from way back when. Also, many of his friends from high school are still here or in the area. 2 of them are paramedics here, so they're jobs sort of go hand in hand.
The closest wal-mart is in Safford, 45 miles away. Basically, if you need clothes or large amounts of groceries, you are required to drive for at least 45 minutes. It completely sucks. We have a circle k, that's pretty much it. Oh, and not one fast food restaurant. Hello home cooking :/
I enjoy cooking but I work night shift, 10pm-6am at the police department so the last thing I want to do is go home and cook. Unfortunately, Omar only grills and opens bags of lettuce. Gotta love him.
I am 150 pounds and 5'4" so not exactly over weight, but 20 pounds more than i used to be in high school. I try different diets but I can never stick to them. I'm a lazy-ass so I don't exercise. I used to run with my best friend Sam, but since we now live 3 hours apart it's a tad difficult. I'm not a good self motivater. Omar on the other hand, is a retired Marine and is super teeny, no matter how much crap he eats. I hate men.
I am the youngest of 3 children, 2 older brothers. My mother is Cheryl, father is Randy, oldest brother is Mike and then there's Rick. So I'm the baby. But I like to think I have a pretty solid grasp on reality.
I have my crafts like painting and knitting, but i get bored easily and hate being cooped up in the house.
Anyways, that's a little about me.
My name is Jennifer.
I live in Morenci, AZ with my boyfriend Omar. He is a police officer and I'm a dispatcher at the same department. We both work at the Clifton Police Department which is about 1 mile from our house. I have lived here approximately 1 year, but I grew up in Tucson. I moved from Tucson because I needed a place to stay, was on the verge of being homeless, and I wanted to be closer to him. Though not necessarily in that order.
I'm 19 years old, Omar is 27.
We have a 3 bedroom house that is barely 700 sq. feet. We have 2 siberian huskies: bettie and jasper. They probably weigh a combined total of 100 pounds. Then I have my little 3 pound shih tzu-terrier mix puppy Leo who is the light of my heart. Omar absolutely despises him and is constantly thinking of ways to kill him. He also hates cats. We have gone through 5 of them before we finally found out we had distemper in the house which is a highly contagious disease.
I also am a terrible writer, so bear with me here.
I knew nothing about Morenci before I moved here. For those of you out there melting your brains by staring at your computer screen just like me; Morenci is a mining town owned by FreeportMacMoran. It's primarily a copper mine but the company that owns it specializes in gold. Which is exactly why it has recently gone down the hole and the town very quickly turned into a ghost town. Supposedly it is picking back up again, but I'll believe it when I see it.
Omar grew up here with his parents and younger brothers, so many people here remember him from way back when. Also, many of his friends from high school are still here or in the area. 2 of them are paramedics here, so they're jobs sort of go hand in hand.
The closest wal-mart is in Safford, 45 miles away. Basically, if you need clothes or large amounts of groceries, you are required to drive for at least 45 minutes. It completely sucks. We have a circle k, that's pretty much it. Oh, and not one fast food restaurant. Hello home cooking :/
I enjoy cooking but I work night shift, 10pm-6am at the police department so the last thing I want to do is go home and cook. Unfortunately, Omar only grills and opens bags of lettuce. Gotta love him.
I am 150 pounds and 5'4" so not exactly over weight, but 20 pounds more than i used to be in high school. I try different diets but I can never stick to them. I'm a lazy-ass so I don't exercise. I used to run with my best friend Sam, but since we now live 3 hours apart it's a tad difficult. I'm not a good self motivater. Omar on the other hand, is a retired Marine and is super teeny, no matter how much crap he eats. I hate men.
I am the youngest of 3 children, 2 older brothers. My mother is Cheryl, father is Randy, oldest brother is Mike and then there's Rick. So I'm the baby. But I like to think I have a pretty solid grasp on reality.
I have my crafts like painting and knitting, but i get bored easily and hate being cooped up in the house.
Anyways, that's a little about me.
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